If only i'm born skinny/taller/bigger eyes/shaper nose/sharper face/perfect skin/rich If only. She is so perfect. I know i know.

I thinking cycling doesn't help much & no matter what, i won't be as skinny & as perfect as her. There are times when i feel like i should give up & just be myself. Stop exercising & just stuff all the food into my mouth. Be who i am cause ppl accept you for who you are. I doubt so. Why am i not born skinny like others who can just eat like nobody business & not have to wake up early in the morning to exercise. Why others can be so perfect. Perfect girls are like everywhere. How to be stick thin skinny? How to be perfect? There's really nothing i'm looking forward to now. Thats the end of my life.

Maybe i never put in much effort. One last try & thats it.